National Infertility Awareness Week

Is April 25th - May 2nd -- http://www.resolve.org/site/PageServer
Infertility can be heart breaking. The small problems I had (and I feel they were small because we were able to conceive without treatment) were heart breaking. People need to be supportive to those who are struggling. I was almost ready to give up after 2 years, I can't imagine what it is like to be dealing with this for years and years. I was fortunate to have a good friend who had experienced many of the same things that I did while trying to conceive. She now has a happy boy who loves my Baby Belle.

Part of the reason I feel like the luckiest person in the world is the fact that I was able to conceive and produce such a happy healthy baby. We struggled for almost 2 years with being unable to get pregnant and the doctors kept telling me to give it more time due to my age (I was 24 when we started) - but that fertility drugs were in my future. I had test after test and the only thing they could figure it to be was Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pcos
Jason and I joked about whose fault it was that we could not get pregnant. A horrible thing to joke about I know but it made us feel a little better in some weird way. When I finally received my PCOS diagnosis I learned that I did not ovulate. I have very long and weird cycles and that was the cause. My doctor did not want me to take the fertility drugs for a few more months, until we could make sure I did not ovulate. She told me that if by some chance I did that the pills would stop it. Honestly that freaked me out because what if I started the pills in the future and my body decided to ovulate how in the world would I know what was going on? It still frustrates me to think about it.
Last year on March 30th, I watched Father of the Bride & Father of the Bride II. It was later and Jason was already asleep. I had not been feeling very well for a day or so and couldn't sleep. Those movies made me so upset for some reason, I don't even know why. They just made me sad because I wasn't able to get pregnant and that old chick was able to (yes I know it is a movie). The next morning I still felt bad, I thought maybe I was pregnant because I had been throwing up and using the bathroom a lot. I went to Instant Care because I don't have a regular doctor. They did a pregnancy blood test, it came back negative. I just had some type of virus. I was pretty much devastated. I cried the entire way home because I just knew that I was sick because I was pregnant. I got very upset with my mother who I did not think understood because everyone acted like it was not a big deal. To me it was huge deal. I don't think Jason really even understood. The DR gave me Phenergan and I was knocked out for about a week and a half. I was still sick after that my friend had diagnosed me with gallbladder problems (haha) but on April 15th decided to just take a pregnancy test. I was going to see Lucero the next day and just wanted to make sure. I took it and it was positive! I called my mother, she couldn't understand why I was upset. I don't understand why she thought I was upset. We went to Wal-Mart at 11 that night and got three more. All were positive. I believe Jason & I were stunned, we didn't know what to do. I told Jason while I was still in the bathroom. Who could wait? lol. I had an appointment the next week to start on Clomid, a fertility drug. Needless to say I felt very happy the next morning when I called my OB/GYN to tell them I needed to cancel. I also called Instant Care to ask about the blood test I had taken. They were very weird about the whole thing, I guess they were afraid I was going to sue. I can't remember what exactly I asked them, but I think it was about the reliability of the test (from what I had read those tests were pretty much 99% accurate). When I got off the phone with them they called me back a little bit later to make sure I told my doctor that the tests were a certain brand, I don't remember which kind now, and that they had been through quality control and that the dr would know what they were talking about. Them acting so weird about it got me paranoid lol. I had my first doctors appointment about two weeks later, I was about 6-8 weeks pregnant. They were surprised that I was pregnant without the fertility drugs.

I know that it was a miracle that I got pregnant. I am thankful for Annabelle every second of every day.