Today....

was pretty bad. I don't really know if it was worse than I expected or better than I expected. I just know that it was bad! My day is almost over and I will soon be on my way to get my little one. I have missed her so much today. I know she is being taken care of well so I am very thankful for that. I have only called about 4 times today to check on her and gotten good reports each time. She was crying once when I called, but she had just woke up and we know how cranky she is when she wakes up lol. I have been pumping today and have been unable to get much in the four times I have pumped as I normally do at one time. That is a little disappointing for me. I will have to get some out of the freezer tonight so she will have enough for tomorrow. I will pump once more before I leave work and hopefully I will get a lot more out. I miss being able to nurse my baby during the day. I expect she will want to nurse a lot when we get home this evening. Jason will be lucky if he even gets to hold her. She slept on the way to the babysitters this morning and will probably sleep on the way home. I am very grateful that she loves to sleep in the car. It kind of seems like a nightmare that she is away from me today. I have to do this every day for the rest of her life, it is so depressing. She has children to play with when she is older and that isn't something she would have with me. I had planned on letting mom keep her next weekend but I don't think that is going to happen now.