One of the worst days ever..

Today I dropped my baby off at the babysitter's house. Leaving her is one of the hardest things I have ever done. I know it is harder on me than it is on her. She was smiling when I left. I will probably cry off and on all day long. I knew it would be very hard but I had not cried all weekend, but I did have horrible migraines, so I thought it would be just a little easier than I expected. Turns out I was wrong, I miss her already (of course) and I only dropped her off an hour ago. Maybe when I get through today things will be better. I had to wake her up before I left so that she wouldn't wake up in a weird place without her momma. I want to be able to stay home with her and take care of her myself but at the same time I want to make sure that we are able to afford to do things and have enough money to give her a great life. I don't want to struggle to get by. If I stayed home that is what we would be doing.