The second day...

is not much better than the first. In fact I believe it was harder this morning than yesterday morning. I miss so many things, and I really have to make myself not dwell on it. I just wish things were different. I feel that I made so many wrong decisions in my life and if only I had known how much I loved having a child and wanted to be home with her that I would not have went to graduate school and gotten those loans. Of course mom told me that I had not made any wrong decisions but I just wish things were different. I wish that Jason and I worked in the same town we lived in. Jason thinks it is as easy as me transferring to Fayette Co. but I do not want to work there. It is very hectic. I really do not like living in Lexington anyway. Sure it is close to everything but I have no one there. I don't mean to sound as though I am some pitiful person, I am very thankful for everything that I have and I know that at anytime anything could happen and we could have nothing. I am grateful because I know there are people who have lost everything. I wish a lot of things that will never happen but I have a great husband who loves me and that I love and a wonderful baby who brings joy to everyones lives.