Our Move

We have been out of Lexington now for almost three months.  During these three months I have had a very wide range of emotions about where we are in our lives.  The main emotion I have felt is happiness but I have not felt very much contentment.  I miss so many things about Lexington, things that I knew I would miss but not to the extent that I am missnig them.  I took so many things for granted before and I hope that I never do that again.  I knew that I was lucky and that I was blessed to have all the things that we have in life.  I just realize HOW blessed I was until we moved.  I have always been spoiled, I will always be spoiled and I will admit it.  I guess I should also admit that we are ALL spoiled, all four of us.  I didn't realize how lucky I was that we could walk out our front door and go on a run, walk, bike ride whatever we wanted to do. I miss that, now we have to drive to run and I will admit that it has stopped us from doing so a few times.  We aren't brave enough to run on the country roads yet.  Lexington has wonderful places to be with nature even in the city.  There was so much of Legacy Trail we didn't get to explore, so many visits we will miss to the Arboretum and the Children's Garden.  Even with all those things missed, our decision to move probably was really for the best.  We have saved so much more money in these three months than we did the last six months of last year.  I won't lie, paying nearly $1,000.00 a month for childcare wasn't easy on us.  Our childcare providers were wonderful though and I wouldn't trade that for anything.  My children loved them just as much as they loved my children.  We are lucky that we had a  place to go when Jason was offered a job, that we had friends who could move into our house and keep it in shape while we get it ready to sell.  Friends who seem to appreciate our house more than I ever did and it makes me feel so guilty.  Annabelle sometimes cries to "go home," and it really and truly breaks my heart and makes me feel selfish for wanting to change all of our lives and move back.  I just thought it would be better to have family around and to work in the same town.  Those things have turned out to be great but its not home yet I guess.  One of my main reasons for wanting to leave Lexington is because we didn't really know anyone there, we both worked out of town and didn't really have any roots.  I guess those would have came when the girls started more activities.  But with that said, when we got here we realized we don't really know anyone here either.  We have been gone for a few years and people we used to know we don't anymore, so I guess we will waiting until our girls start activities to grow roots here too :)  Other than when Annabelle asks to "go home" she seems to be pretty happy here, she loves being able to play with her cousins.  She loves those boys so much and constantly wants to go to their house and follow them around.  It will just take a little time to get used to things, to get us more settled but we should be fine.


Wow, what a ramble...