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I'm not a very good writer, but I hope I am able to get my point across without making myself sound like a very harsh person.  I consider myself to be nice, to be funny and to have a good personality but there are some things that I could be better at.  Those things I see in my children, that they are better than me already even at their young ages.  My husband is very different from me, he is very loving, very funny and has a good personality (well maybe we aren't that different) but it is "different."  His heart is very different, although I am loving he is loveable.  I'm not a cold person but when I think of myself and my husband these lyrics from The Avett Brothers song Shame always come into my mind "My heart was always fairly cold. Posing to be as warm as yours.  My way of getting in your world."  I have sympathy for people, I have empathy for people but there is just something about my heart and my husband's heart that is different.  I wasn't a lovey dovey child growing up, I didn't like hugs, kisses, public displays of affection, stuff like that.  What "normal" people probably enjoy.  I didn't say "I love you" often or at all actually.  I was just "weird!"  My Annabelle has the biggest heart at the age of 3.  I told her a couple weeks ago that I was so glad that she has her "daddy's heart."  She said, "But momma, I have your heart too."  I just smiled at her because she does have my heart too but mainly and probably most importantly she has the warm heart of her daddy. My lack of affection toward people was probably a little more than hurtful to my family and I am so glad that Annabelle is different from me.