Adjusting

It has been two and a half months since we brought home our newest addition.  If someone had asked me before she was born if I would have felt this rested, this relaxed, this calm at this point I would have said "no way."   But I am rested, relaxed and calm so much in fact that I had to say it in fear of jinxing it somehow.  In all honesty I feel more rested than I did when I only had one.  I remember how I slept most of Annabelle's first three months.  I have not had a nap during the day since Caroline was 2 weeks old.  Annabelle has only napped for me one time during the entire 2.5 months we have been off.  Caroline is a good napper, she is also a great night sleper.  She has slept through the night since we brought her home.  I have to get up before she does every morning and pump. I currently have almost 300 ounces of breastmilk in my freezer.  Luckily I found a deep freeze and it will be here Saturday.  Breastmilk stores for 6 months in those and only 3 in regular freezer plus I'm running out of room in the freezer for food.  My maternity leave will be over in 5 weeks and I dread it like the plague.  I start a new job and my girls start a new sitter.  I am not as nervous about either as I am about Annabelle's reaction to leaving me that first morning.  She NEVER cried for me EVER when I left her with Jennifer (the old sitter).  She has turned a little dramatic since the birth of Caroline so I think there will be tears from the both of us that first morning.  She will be fine as soon as I'm gone and I know that but it will still hurt like hell to leave her. 

I was anxious to see what kind of personality Caroline would have.  So far it is very similar to her sister's.  maybe she is a little more laid back than Annabelle.  I am actually able to lay or sit Caroline down for periods of time.  Sometime I couldn't do with Annabelle, she required constant holding.  I didn't mind but thought it would be harder to do that with this one and a 2 year old.  So far we have had zero problems.

Something I have been trying to prepare myself for is the developmental differences that may exist in the two.  Annabelle did a lot of things early and did them well.  She could talk in sentences before 15 months, potty trained at 2 (but daddy is just now letting her sleep in panties over night - silly man!), crawled at 6 and is just an overall intelligent child if I do say so myself.  The only thing she didn't do early but did on time was walk.  She did that three days after turning 1 - I blame myself and Jason for never letting her down.  All children are different and develop on a different schedule.  Just by what I have seen from Caroline so far she will develop the same if not faster in some areas such as crawling and walking.  Annabelle was very stought as an infant but Caroline it seems is stoughter. 

In the next 5 weeks I am really hoping that what is supposed to happen happens and I get to stay at home.  But this has been supposed to happen for months no so I'm not going to hold my breathe  There is absolutely nothing I want more than to stay home and care for my own babies.  If that were to happen and we are still financial secure there will be more Welch babies in the future :)