33 Weeks!

I have always spent most of my free time reading, mostly about true crime and historical things but since I have been pregnant it has been about babies and birth and all that goes with it. The girls at work talk about their birth stories and I like to hear them so I have some idea of what to expect. Sometimes though they don't want to tell me things so not to "scare" me. Fortunately for me I am not afraid of labor, I know it will hurt, how could it not. I have a higher tolerance for pain than a lot of people but I still complain. Most people do not think it compares to child birth but I have had many bad pain experiences with my facial swellings. The last one so bad that I wanted to shoot myself in the foot or anywhere just to get some relief and stronger pain medicine. The pain medication I was on didn't do the job and I passed out (just for a few seconds). I do not really want to get an epidural when Anna is born, but I know that I am not superwoman and I have absolutely nothing to prove by not getting one. I am going to go in with an open mind about it and take it for as long as I can. When I can no longer handle it then if there is still time I will get the epidural. I think I have a bigger fear of the epidural than I do the child birth, strange I know. I don't fear needles or anything like that but you just have to sit still and it is going into your spine! To me that is scary stuff. I know that the pain is just going to be temporary and just have to keep telling myself that. Mind over matter and all that jazz - we will see how well that works for me. I know that I may have a unrealistic view of things but it is my view and if I keep thinking this way then it might be the way things happen. Some people ask me why suffer the pain if I don't have to by not getting the epidural and I honestly do not have a good answer to that. The only answer I have is that my mom had my sister and I both naturally with nothing, surely I can not let her out do me.

Going back to reading, yesterday Jason was talking about censoring what our child would read when she was older. I told him absolutely not would my child be censored on what she read. My parents never censored me, and I turned out just fine - of course he disagreed with my turning out just fine part lol. Seriously though who says that stuff?!?!?!?!?! He was mostly joking when he said it because he knew it would aggravate me but I believe the first time he tries that on her I will punch him in the gut. I am getting irritated thinking of it, Jason Welch King of aggravation as my sister says.

I have a doctors appointment today, which is just routine but I am going to ask her about the Braxton hicks I believe I had last night. Braxton Hicks are fake contractions that are trying to get your body ready for the real thing. It was just some pulling and discomfort that woke me up from sleeping. It didn't last too long and I guess there were only one of them. I want my baby to be here but I don't want to her to be here now because I know she is not ready. She has seven weeks of developing to go. I wish that December would hurry so she can come out healthy and happy. No matter how uncomfortable I get I could never imagine wanting to go ahead and have my baby just so that I would feel better. Unfortunately though that does happen, and I can't believe doctors let it. I know some women say that they hate being pregnant, I can't imagine that either. I have had a good pregnancy aside from the sickness in the first trimester so that may be the difference. Annabelle thinks the way out is to push to the right side. She pops her elbow out and it just sits there prodruding from my belly. It is funny!